I hate the fact that everything I did was never enough


My brain is looping these days. <>I can’t even sleep because of all the commotion upstairs. <>In my head, I relive every moment and analyze each conversation we had.<><>

Useless, I know. <>But I can’t block my thoughts. <>Even if most of the time, I really want to.<><>

All my thoughts revolve around the same question: “Why was I not enough?”<><>

No matter how many times I pass it through my head, I am still unable to understand where exactly I went wrong because I was convinced I did everything right.<><>

It seemed so simple and easy. <>All the ingredients for a successful relationship were there. <>Everything had to work well if there was enough love. <>If you had given everything you had.<><>

If you were just yourself. <>If you had been brave. <>If you had trusted the person you were with.<><>

If you were ready to compromise. <>If you lived in the moment and gave the best of yourself, it would have worked in the end.<><>

Either way, it never worked. <>And I hate it to be so. <>I hate the fact that whatever I do is never enough.<><>

I tried to stay true to myself and accepted you for what you really were. <>And let’s face it, you weren’t the easiest person to get along with, but I still loved you.<><>

There were times when you gave me everything you had and others when you walked away so hard that I couldn’t reach you. <>However, my feelings and attitude towards you have never changed.<><>

A moment of happiness with you made up for all the bad. <>It made me stronger. <>It made me try harder.<><>

It made me want to experience even more of these moments. <>So I bet even more. <>I always tried to be the best version of myself.<><>

I had a few bad days too. <>My emotions were crazy. <>I got angry, I was angry, I was afraid and I had doubts; <>overall, I was sad.<><>

It was normal in my eyes. <>It had to be like that. <>It’s life, things happen and we have to manage them as best we can.<><>

You had bad days too. <>You had horrible days and I saw them as something inevitable, something I had to help you get through.<><>

I hate the fact that everything I did was never enough

I have always supported you. <>When all the odds were against you, when the storms arrived, I stayed there as firmly as during the happy days.<><>

I was there to support you and believe in you, even if you were almost never there for me.<><>

I did not know who gave more to whom. <>I gave the best of myself. <>I gave everything I had, selflessly, expecting nothing in return.<><>

I was happy to make you happy. <>Your smile was all I wanted in exchange for my efforts.<><>

Maybe I should have counted the things you returned to me. <>Maybe that’s where I was wrong.<><>

I focused on you, on your feelings, on your happiness, to the point that I completely neglected myself. <>I got lost in loving you.<><>

I really believe that is the only thing I misunderstood. <>Even you, you had no valid reason to leave me when hell was unleashed and you decided to end it between us.<><>

I hate the fact that you left like that. <>Without any valid explanation so that I can sleep calmly at night.<><>

I hate the fact that you abandoned us so easily. <>I hate the fact that you made me feel like I was wasting my time with you.<><>

As if I was wasting my time with one-sided love, because I now understand that it was all me. <>All the love we had in our relationship came from me and I couldn’t love for two.<><>

I hate that you made me feel worthless. <>I hate this feeling of hate in me.<><>

I hate that you are always my main thought during the day, and that I cannot breathe properly. <>I hope it will pass soon.<><>

It hurts so much to share everything with someone and only receive pain in return. <>But who would have thought that pain can help learning so much?<><>

And through this pain, I gradually realize that whatever I can do, good or bad, it would never have been enough. <><>

Because doing everything right doesn’t mean anything if the person you’re with is not right.<><>

My brain is looping these days. <>I can’t even sleep because of all the commotion upstairs. <>In my head, I relive every moment and analyze each conversation we had.<><>

Useless, I know. <>But I can’t block my thoughts. <>Even if most of the time, I really want to.<><>

All my thoughts revolve around the same question: “Why was I not enough?”<><>

No matter how many times I pass it through my head, I am still unable to understand where exactly I went wrong because I was convinced I did everything right.<><>

It seemed so simple and easy. <>All the ingredients for a successful relationship were there. <>Everything had to work well if there was enough love. <>If you had given everything you had.<><>

If you were just yourself. <>If you had been brave. <>If you had trusted the person you were with.<><>

If you were ready to compromise. <>If you lived in the moment and gave the best of yourself, it would have worked in the end.<><>

Either way, it never worked. <>And I hate it to be so. <>I hate the fact that whatever I do is never enough.<><>

I tried to stay true to myself and accepted you for what you really were. <>And let’s face it, you weren’t the easiest person to get along with, but I still loved you.<><>

There were times when you gave me everything you had and others when you walked away so hard that I couldn’t reach you. <>However, my feelings and attitude towards you have never changed.<><>

A moment of happiness with you made up for all the bad. <>It made me stronger. <>It made me try harder.<><>

It made me want to experience even more of these moments. <>So I bet even more. <>I always tried to be the best version of myself.<><>

I had a few bad days too. <>My emotions were crazy. <>I got angry, I was angry, I was afraid and I had doubts; <>overall, I was sad.<><>

It was normal in my eyes. <>It had to be like that. <>It’s life, things happen and we have to manage them as best we can.<><>

You had bad days too. <>You had horrible days and I saw them as something inevitable, something I had to help you get through.<><>

I hate the fact that everything I did was never enough

I have always supported you. <>When all the odds were against you, when the storms arrived, I stayed there as firmly as during the happy days.<><>

I was there to support you and believe in you, even if you were almost never there for me.<><>

I did not know who gave more to whom. <>I gave the best of myself. <>I gave everything I had, selflessly, expecting nothing in return.<><>

I was happy to make you happy. <>Your smile was all I wanted in exchange for my efforts.<><>

Maybe I should have counted the things you returned to me. <>Maybe that’s where I was wrong.<><>

I focused on you, on your feelings, on your happiness, to the point that I completely neglected myself. <>I got lost in loving you.<><>

I really believe that is the only thing I misunderstood. <>Even you, you had no valid reason to leave me when hell was unleashed and you decided to end it between us.<><>

I hate the fact that you left like that. <>Without any valid explanation so that I can sleep calmly at night.<><>

I hate the fact that you abandoned us so easily. <>I hate the fact that you made me feel like I was wasting my time with you.<><>

As if I was wasting my time with one-sided love, because I now understand that it was all me. <>All the love we had in our relationship came from me and I couldn’t love for two.<><>

I hate that you made me feel worthless. <>I hate this feeling of hate in me.<><>

I hate that you are always my main thought during the day, and that I cannot breathe properly. <>I hope it will pass soon.<><>

It hurts so much to share everything with someone and only receive pain in return. <>But who would have thought that pain can help learning so much?<><>

And through this pain, I gradually realize that whatever I can do, good or bad, it would never have been enough. <><>

Because doing everything right doesn’t mean anything if the person you’re with is not right.<><>


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